So I’m a bit better today. I still haven’t made a decision about the marathon because I want to attempt one more long run this weekend — a 14-miler — and see how it makes me feel. I also want to speak with my therapist, who I’ve not seen in many months but have made an appointment with next week. She’s usually pretty good at talking me out of my “I’m gonna die” nonsense.
That’s my tentative plan for now, but here’s a recap of my good day and all the things that boosted my happy factor:
I drank a LOT. No, not that kind of drinking. I hydrated with good old fashioned H2O from sunrise to sunset. I’m pretty sure I’m not drinking as much water as I should be considering my training load, so I’m aiming to fix that.
I ate whole, fresh, delicious, nutritious foods all day. Early apples and peaches from the nearby orchard, carrots, banana with nut butter, and this amazing gazpacho that I threw together in the food processor using tomatoes and cucumbers from our garden:
And dinner? A full plate of pastured pork sausage and eggs, wilted spinach, and a pile of locally-made curry sauerkraut.
I got all of my workouts done from my training calendar — my PiYo DVD and a bike/run brick (a 50-minute bike ride followed immediately by a 30-minute run. It’s called a “brick” because that’s exactly what your legs feel like when you try to run after cycling. Oy.).
Most importantly, I connected with my children. We took a trip to the nearby playground and library for some playtime this afternoon. It’s sometimes easy to forget, when you’re a stay-at-home-parent, that THEY are the most important thing, the thing that demands your immediate attention. Not the dishes in the sink, or the laundry, or a workout, or even your own emotions and problems. Them first. You next. Keeping my focus on my kids grounds me. It reminds me why I’m doing all of this in the first place — to model healthy habits, and to keep myself happy and sane. Because we all know that happy mama = happy family.
So I’ll keep up this dance that I’m doing with the marathon and with my mental wellness — two steps forward, one step back — a bit longer and see where it leads me. I’ve no idea what will happen nine weeks from now on race day. I just know that today was a good one, and that’s all that matters for now.